Divorcing

Divorcing is easier said than done, even when you WANT to get rid of “him”.  Your feelings of self-esteem plummet….even if you were the dumper and he the “dumpee”.  Was I not good enough for this person to have stayed married? What part did I play in the breakup of the marriage? The reasons for the divorce are no longer even important. The fact that the divorce occurred is evidence enough that BOTH of us are the losers.

Will there be a new person out there for me when I am free? Do I even WANT someone else after this? I’ve messed up before, what makes me think that I will make a better choice the next time? Everybody puts forth their best foot at the beginning of a relationship so it is hard to tell if this person is really the best fit.  I have heard that “infatuation” lasts a little under a year…so you have to wait this long to see the REAL person?

I know that I should be concentrating on just being “me”…and finding someone else shouldn’t be an issue right now.  However, I don’t want to grow old without a partner. I cannot pretend that I don’t want someone else.I want someone to come home to at the end of the day.  Someone to share my bedroom. Someone to share the rest of their life with me.  My daughters will marry and make their own lives and where will I be?

So what to do until Prince Charming comes along?  Go out and do fun stuff, get my mind off of me and my problems? Live Life and stop looking “in all the wrong places” or in ANY places and just go about the business of living?

EASIER SAID THAN DONE!!!