My life is due for some changes. Some have happened already….others I am in the process of implementing…..and still others are still in the planning stages! Why does it take so long to make changes…even if they are for the better? I am discontinuing old traditions, incorporating brand new ones. It feels liberating, although a little scary and challenging. Some are actually thrust upon me while others take a long time in coming! Some are unclear and still need further digesting. Some are crystal clear but I don’t want to take the step. Others are Murky and I want to clear them up and make things good.
I’m not sure how I am going to go about making my life the best it can be. I am seeing that what I thought was black and white is actually many shades of gray! And even within the gray there is still room for negotiation! If I don’t like one answer, keep searching til the right one appears!
The changes that are coming will be to make ME happy! I am always worried about what OTHERS are or are not doing that I don’t focus on what I would like to happen in my life. Well, that is a thing of the past. I am definately aware of what i WANT and what i DON’T want in my life…..beware….all things that are not serving my purposes….here comes the chopping block!!!
Sunday, April 24, 2011 at 11:26 pm
So things have changed…yet again….. I was thinking that things would get better in my life but I see that they are not. The only avenue open to me was to “detach” from what was causing conflict in my life. Interesting how putting some distance really helps to clarify what it is you want to do in your life.
One thing i DON’T want to do is waste any more time on something that isn’t going to work. I’ve been hanging on, waiting to see if things would fix themselves, but I can see I am waiting in vain. I need to step back and let things run their course, and not hinder the inevitable.
Ever since I made this decision, I feel so RELIEVED….so AT PEACE….so FREE of any expectations.
Sunday, April 17, 2011 at 11:25 pm
